#it takes more than a hundred years but eventually there it is, less than a whisper and for the first 20 times it happens merlin believes he’s finally going mad, #the whisper nothing but imagination. but the first time a ‘shut up’ echosover the lake, he knows it’s real.
#over the years, the occasional whispers turn into conversations, arthur’s voice getting louder and clearer.
#okay you cannot fathom my creys here #you cannot even imagine #the way his voice broke when he said it #it was just like #all the times he’s been called useless in his life and they all finally caught up with him #because ‘merlin you idiot’ is kind of like a catchphrase around the castle and usually he lets it all roll off him but now #now it actually matters #because now he almost died #and if he had he would have died being useless stupid idiot merlin and no one would ever know all that he’s done #all he wants to do is protect arthur and he came so close to failing #oh shit fuck damn the dam is open here come my tears
I think I have CRIED and LAUGHED more here than I ever have before.
Isn’t it weird how God killed 2.4 million people in the bible and Satan killed 10
I’m a hopeless wanderer.
shouldn’t you be doing, ya’know, young things! with young people!
I have bullshitted my way through almost two decades of life